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Monday, January 13, 2014

Exhaustion

So.  Let's discuss something.

I'm tired.

I try not to talk about being tired very often...it probably stems from my pregnancy.  Whenever someone asked how I was feeling and I told them honestly that I was tired, they said, "Ohhhhh, just you wait until that baby is born!  You don't even KNOW what tired is yet!"


So at some point I just stopped telling people how I actually felt, because apparently I wasn't allowed to feel tired until Gibson was born.  When asked by most people how I felt, I was always "Good!" or "Fine!"  Never tired.

And now that he's here, I don't want to complain because he is such a huge blessing.  I don't want anyone to misconstrue my fatigue as a wish that I didn't have a baby.

That's probably irrational, but that's just how I am, alright?

Although no one has explicitly told me that I should never ever complain, I feel like a lot of pressure to be perfect as a mom.  A lot of blogs about parenthood tiptoe around the trials of having a child, and instead focus on macaroni art, homemade laundry detergent, and making restaurant-quality meals.  Pinterest certainly doesn't help...all it does is make me feel severely inadequate in nearly every aspect of my life.  Which is why I don't venture into that corner of the internet very often.


As it turns out, I'm far from perfect.  I don't have it all together.  Gibson rarely wears pants when we're at home.  I'm usually in my robe until his first nap.  I don't read to him as much as I would like.  And sometimes I'm just exhausted.

But you know what?  That's okay.  I decided.

So.  All you tired parents out there, let me hear you say "HEEEEEY!  HOOOOOO!"  Go ahead and be tired.  And feel free to tell me about it.

You can also feel free to tell me about times when your child woke up covered in vomit with a diaper full of poop in the middle of the night and proceeded to scream for two hours.  Because I understand that pain, too.  Unfortunately.

3 comments :

  1. THIS HAPPENED TO ME LAST NIGHT, TOO. We are the same person. I love you and understand and feel the same way and you know you can call me anytime you want! Love and miss you.

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  2. As a stay home mom like you with a few tykes of my own I can totally relate! (I have been interrupted several times just trying to write this comment.) Judging from your previous posts (just started reading) it sounds like you are a great mom with a wonderful sense of humor. Something you definitely need while raising kids. Great blog! Keep it up!

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  3. Sorry Gibson is giving you a bit of a rough time with the teething and everything, Erin. I can relate. My third had such a terrible time teething too. I hope things turn around soon for him. :( If it makes you feel in good company, I'm tired too. It's 8.20 and I keep checking the clock wondering if it's time for bed yet. But honestly- no fair comparing yourself to Pinterest. That site is full of the best ideas a billion people have to offer, and none of the worst. It's no wonder we average Mom's can't even go there. You KNOW it's not an accurate picture of what every other Mom out there is busy doing. Just be yourself! That's all your little guy wants or needs.

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