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Friday, April 15, 2016

Thank you for this hard day.

You guys haven't seen me in awhile!  That is partly because I'm just the worst at sitting down and writing, and partly because my sweet Gibson and I have been having a rough go of it lately.

We have good days, for sure.  There are days when he is well-rested and happy, doesn't fight me on everything, and when I don't feel exhausted and grumpy.

But today has been a hard day.  We were all sick last week, and sleep has been hard to come by since then.  Both kids are exhausted and cranky, and it's just been a really, really hard day.

When I put Gibson down for his nap, we talked about how it had been a hard day, and how we could make the afternoon better.  After we talked, we prayed.  I prayed something like, "Please, please, please, God, let Gibson sleep.  Please" (in so many words).  And then Gibson prayed:

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for this hard day.

...

Woah.

I'm so quick to thank God for the easy days.  For the days when I feel like #momoftheyear.  For the days that I get things done, play with AND feed my kids, and brush my teeth and/or hair without getting stressed out.

But how often do I thank Him for the hard days?  The days when every. single. thing. is a struggle?  When Gibson pushes his sister five thousand times?  When I yell way too much?  When I feel like running away to be by myself for like five minutes?

...rarely.

I don't handle hard days well.  My strategy is to just get through them, without yelling TOO much, or ripping my eyebrows out in frustration.  My instinct isn't to turn to God for help, much less to thank Him for the struggle.  My instinct is just to survive on my own.

Let me tell you: this isn't a particularly good strategy.

The hard days could be so much more than just surviving.  They could be an opportunity for me to show my kids grace, patience, gentleness, and understanding.  An opportunity to turn to Jesus for strength, instead of myself.  An opportunity to teach my kids about handling big emotions, and turning to God for help.  An opportunity to ask for forgiveness when I fail.  And a reminder that I just can't do it on my own, no matter how hard I try to be #momoftheyear.  I will fail, because I'm human and I'm just not strong enough on my own.

I'm thankful to my Gibson for that reminder.  I have been letting the hard days get the best of me lately, and it shows in how I interact with my family, and in how I interact with God.  I shouldn't allow hard days to define my life, my kids, or my relationship with God.  I need to find my strength in Him, instead of trying to summon strength I just don't have on my own.


Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31

Thank you, God, for this hard day.  Please help me to learn from it, and to become more like you as a result of it.  Thank you for your unfathomable understanding, for your promises, and for your strength.

In case you were interested, the rest of Gibson's prayer went like this:

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for this hard day.  And thank you for watching Sid the Science Kid.  And I want to have NO dreams. 

In Jesus we pray, A-MAN




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